8.1.18 | secret world

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there is a secret world that exists only to me. one in which, I'm not haunted by thoughts of you because the colors you paint me are vivid instead of bleak, there is no desire to erase the memories that plague my hippocampus. everything is crystalline, no secret feelings, no hidden agendas. transparency is our life. honesty flows as powerful as the River Styx. we dipped our whole bodies in, bathing in newfound protection, unable to be hurt ever again. especially by one another.
there is a secret world that exists in me, only to me. under lock and key, I guard it. because in my secrecy there is no threat; only safety.

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