6.4.18 | "You just seemed kinda distant this week."

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we haven't been talking,
but maybe that's okay,
because I really have no clue what to say.
it's been a few days of running
around this maze,
trying to assemble mismatched
thoughts to fit into my heart.
but the pieces are all wrong.
I don't have the right words,
because all I want to say
is that this isn't what I want anymore
and I'm sorry I had to find out this way.

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