11.23.17

I'm sad about everything and nothing at the same time.
My mood shifts like the clouds in the sky,
darkness one moment, a glimpse of sunlight the next.
I miss the days of clarity,
I miss the fucking sunshine.
I'm nostalgic for one specific feeling,
one particular sentiment,
one I'll probably never have again.
This time last year I was falling for someone who would let me down immensely,
this time two years ago I was in love with someone who would do the same.
This year I'm just falling, headed straight into the sea, I flew too close to the sun and burst into flames.
I thought I would be a supernova,
but instead, I've become a black hole,
collapsing in on myself,
sucking everything in,
a star not at their grand finale,
a dying star with no hope of recovery.
Beware.