10.22.17
"Chug, chug, chug."
It poured down my throat, but I barely tasted it still. I was already emotionally numb, this alcohol couldn't burn me any more than my insides already were.
The first one was long, we didn't time it, but perhaps we should have.
The second one was thirteen seconds, perhaps a bit longer.
The third was barely worthy of counting.
The fourth was a shot and nothing more.
I was gone, I felt gone, I knew I was gone.
I didn't plan on this either, and perhaps that's the most disappointing part of it. I told myself just a chug, just a sip, just a little bit. I didn't think I would spiral so downward, so fast, so out of control, everything spinning and I spun along with my own destruction.
I curled up on the bed, everyone danced around me while I was dancing with my own personal demons.
It poured down my throat, but I barely tasted it still. I was already emotionally numb, this alcohol couldn't burn me any more than my insides already were.
The first one was long, we didn't time it, but perhaps we should have.
The second one was thirteen seconds, perhaps a bit longer.
The third was barely worthy of counting.
The fourth was a shot and nothing more.
I was gone, I felt gone, I knew I was gone.
I didn't plan on this either, and perhaps that's the most disappointing part of it. I told myself just a chug, just a sip, just a little bit. I didn't think I would spiral so downward, so fast, so out of control, everything spinning and I spun along with my own destruction.
I curled up on the bed, everyone danced around me while I was dancing with my own personal demons.
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